A Sad Good-bye...

[jen w.]

It’s Sunday morning. I should be out walking the dog right now. I am lost. I am gutted. I don’t know what to do with myself except try to keep busy so that I don’t have to think. My dog is gone.

Almost two weeks ago now, just after he turned 11 years old, Beasley began to cough. It wasn’t like Kennel Cough. This cough was different. It only occurred a few times a day and passed. At first, I thought it was old dog stuff, nothing serious, but when he began to pick at his food; when he became breathless and tired on his walks, I knew something was wrong. His usual spark and zest for life seemed to be fading before my eyes. I watched and hoped he would get better but after a few days of this, I took him to the vet. X-rays revealed that Beasley had lung cancer, probably metastatic and originating somewhere else. There was no hope for a quality life. I tried to prepare myself for what was next. 

He passed peacefully, quietly and in my arms, my best friend, my only partner. He passed with dignity and grace but he passed too unexpectedly and too soon. Now, I am alone again. I have no children of my own, no husband and no family. I want my dog back.

I knew this day would come but I never expected it this soon or with such sudden finality. Lately, he had been coming to me and putting his head in my lap. I did wonder if he was trying to tell me something. Perhaps it was covered love or maybe he just wanted to play but I won't deny that I had a disconcerting feeling that something was not right. I have decided to share this here because it is a place where previously I expressed what a whacky, wonderful experience I was given with this beautiful spirit, “my darling B”.  

Please enjoy each moment you have with your own doodles. Someday those moments will be your memories…I wish you all peace and good times at the dog park! Sleep well, my dear Beasley, sleep well.

RIP Beasley 2004 - 2015

[Lonnie & Libby Lu]

My heart hurts for you Jen.  I am so sorry for the loss of Beasley.  Saying prayers and sending love your way.

[Charlotte and Bo]

I'm sorry for your loss.  It's always hard when they leave us. 

[Sue]

How heartbreaking. My sincere condolences in the loss of your long time friend.

Their lives are just too short.

[Judith and Addie]

I am so sorry for your loss of your partner and friend. It is always too soon.

[Stella]

So very sorry to hear your sad news. I, like you, just have my dogs and know I will be devastated when it is time I say goodbye. Remember the good times, know that he is waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge and you will be together again someday. You will have other dogs and they will all have a special place in your heart. Hugs to you.