Tomorrow is going to be the hardest day of my life... need encouragement..

[Denise & Hunter!!!]

Someone told me yesterday that it was going to be the first day of the rest of my life...... yesterday was the day my beloved dad passed away.  He was 74 years old and I wanted him for 74 more.  I didn't get what I wanted.  I was very close to my dad, I am an only child and the picture of a daddy's girl.  I still can't wrap my mind around not being able to talk to him and hear his voice.  

 

Tomorrow are his calling hours and Tuesday is his funeral.  In a strange way I can't wait for them to be over so I can start to cope and then on the other hand I don't want it to come at all so I don't have to say good bye.  Actually, I already said good bye for now but I miss him beyond what I ever thought someone could feel.  

 

There is one very special Doodle Kisses member (she knows who she is) that was with my dad and helped my mom the night this nightmare began.  She is going to forever hold a special place in my heart and I will never be able to thank her enough for helping my family when I was not there.  

 

So here starts the rest of my life without my dad, but I will treasure every piece of advice and every word that he said to me.  I always know that "daddy loves me" because he told me every time I saw him.  

 

[Nancie & Gracie Doodle]

Denise...I am so sorry of your loss.  I lost my mother two weeks ago but she had a long good life and almost made it to 90.  Her last 5 years were bad and so I am at peace with the fact she is finally no longer hurting or unhappy.  You had something very special with your dad (I can tell from what you wrote).  Hold on to that and remember all the good times.  I have wonderful memories of my grandparents and every time I see a Blue Jay I think of my Grandpa and when I smell Freezia flowers I think of my Nana.  These things calm me and bring a smile to my face.  You will have so many smiles come to your face as you find reminders of your father.  Hold on to those...they are special memories!  Hugs from me and Gracie Doodle

[Denise & Hunter!!!]

I just read through all of my wonderful, kind, heartfelt messages and they mean so much to me. They are all giving me hope that it will bearable eventually. Tonight were his calling hours, I did ok (not crying over and over) if I stayed in the back half away from all of the photos and his casket. I will be forever grateful that he wanted it closed during the calling hours. Tomorrow is the service and I just feel him impending dread. I am going to read all of your encouraging words a few more times.

I am blessed to have everyone of you to take the time to help me through this.

[Jodi and Stella]

My heart is breaking for you Denise.

[Jennifer,Chloe & Myla]

Denise, I'm so sorry for your loss and what you and your family are going through.Thinking of you.

[Sherri, Sophie, Winston, & Kitty]

very sorry for your loss.

[Kyoko]

Deepest sympathy for you and your family, Denise... I am so sorry for your loss....

[Carol and Banjo]

Sending you hugs and prayers to help you find the strength you'll need for this very sad and difficult time.   Your Dad will always be with you Denise.   My Dad passed away almost 12 years ago and I talk to him daily.  During difficult times it seems he's still there to lean on.   I'm so sorry Denise.

[Suzann, Rosey & Bandit]

Denise, my heart breaks for you and the loss of your dad. Sending lots of prayers and hugs to get you thru the next few days and beyond..

[Jennifer and Jack]

I am sorry, I am praying that you will remember all the amazing times you had, when you close your eyes that you will be able to feel him. I am praying for strength for you..

[Ronna, Murphy & Wilson]

Denise, I am so sorry for your loss.  My heart goes out to you and your family.