With a Very Heavy Heart

I am so sad to say that we had to put our beautiful Red Tri Aussie Renegade to sleep today. My tears just don't stop, but I know they will. It was time, he was 15 and had many things wrong at this point. His back and back legs were no good and getting worse. He was having some bad spasms with leg and body jerking while sleeping, and he was deficating in the house,and had several tumors that were visible which this dog never ever did from the time we got him 15 yrs ago. He was my sweet gentle friend. He was the reason that we got Oliver, he was so lost when he lost his buddy Token(we had Token for 16 yrs,) so Renny was totally lost without Token, he was 3 mos when we got him, and was never without him for 13 yrs. So Oliver was his buddy for 3 yrs, and he helped so much in the trainng of Oliver. He always let Oliver get his way with toys, he never tried to take one away from him. He was the best big brother to a little golden doodle. And even when Oliver grew larger then him, he still let him get his way. only once did I ever hear Renny growl at Oliver, and Oliver knew his limits with him. I took Renny's bowls away tonight, and Oliver just kept staring at me...he knows, I am not sure how, but he is not his usual bouncing self tonight, maybe he feels my pain, but I am so glad I have him here to hug and be with...My DH, did not go with me, I wouldn't let him, he is way too emotional, and when we had to put Token to sleep, he couldn't handle it, so I told him to stay at work, ( it is tax season) and I would handle it. I heard him say his goodbyes this morning and I had to get to the bathroom so he wouldn't her me sobbing with him...Sucha sad day, but I know that we did the right thing, and he is now at the rainbow bridge and Token will be there to meet him and take care of him....Cheryl

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Permalink Reply by Adrianne Matzkin on March 21, 2012 at 8:55pm

God of all creatures, ease our grief today as we bid farewell to Renny, whose passing leaves a gap in our family circle. He demanded so little of us – fresh water, food, a patch of sunlight for sun-bathing, our presence – and gave so much in return – uncritical, undemanding, unlimited affection and devotion for all of us. Greeting each day, each moment, happily on its own terms, he showed us how to live in the present rather than regret the past or worry about the future. His easy forgiveness of our flaws, his inability to hold a grudge, gave us an example of grace.

Creator, we’re grateful for being allowed to share his life for our allotted time. We will miss him bounding through our family life, but he will always be present in our hearts.

Amen.

Cheryl - I am so sorry for the loss of Renny. Even though it was the right thing for him, the pain in your heart is no less. We are sending hugs and doodle kisses to you, DH and Oliver.

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Permalink Reply by Christine & Camus on March 21, 2012 at 9:08pm

Saying goodbye is so very hard even when you know the time has come and at times it just hurts - but hold on tight to Oliver he can help ease the pain. My thoughts are with you.