A Sad Good-bye...

[jen w.]

It’s Sunday morning. I should be out walking the dog right now. I am lost. I am gutted. I don’t know what to do with myself except try to keep busy so that I don’t have to think. My dog is gone.

Almost two weeks ago now, just after he turned 11 years old, Beasley began to cough. It wasn’t like Kennel Cough. This cough was different. It only occurred a few times a day and passed. At first, I thought it was old dog stuff, nothing serious, but when he began to pick at his food; when he became breathless and tired on his walks, I knew something was wrong. His usual spark and zest for life seemed to be fading before my eyes. I watched and hoped he would get better but after a few days of this, I took him to the vet. X-rays revealed that Beasley had lung cancer, probably metastatic and originating somewhere else. There was no hope for a quality life. I tried to prepare myself for what was next. 

He passed peacefully, quietly and in my arms, my best friend, my only partner. He passed with dignity and grace but he passed too unexpectedly and too soon. Now, I am alone again. I have no children of my own, no husband and no family. I want my dog back.

I knew this day would come but I never expected it this soon or with such sudden finality. Lately, he had been coming to me and putting his head in my lap. I did wonder if he was trying to tell me something. Perhaps it was covered love or maybe he just wanted to play but I won't deny that I had a disconcerting feeling that something was not right. I have decided to share this here because it is a place where previously I expressed what a whacky, wonderful experience I was given with this beautiful spirit, “my darling B”.  

Please enjoy each moment you have with your own doodles. Someday those moments will be your memories…I wish you all peace and good times at the dog park! Sleep well, my dear Beasley, sleep well.

RIP Beasley 2004 - 2015

[Karen Murray Boston]

I am so sorry your baby is gone. You are never alone when you have such wonderful memories; hold them tight. Sending you lots of love and Doodle Kisses!

[Linda, Charlie Brown and Beau]

I am sorry for your loss of your handsome boy!  Others of us have gone through this - it is just so darn hard to lose your heart dog! I truly can sympathize.  Hugs to you.

[Christine & Shelby]

So sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved Beasley!   Hopefully soon the tears will fade and the smiles will return as you remember all the silly things he did and the fun the two of you had together.   He was loved... and you know he loved you with all his heart.

[Jarka, Monty & Auggie]

So sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy.

[Karen, Jasper and Jackdoodle]

I am so terribly sorry for your loss. May he run free at the Bridge, and may he live in your heart forever.

[Carol and Banjo]

I'm so very sorry for your loss Jen.

[Sharon & Monty]

I'm so sorry for  your loss. No loss is ever easy, especially for the heart doggers.  You take care.  Hugs.

[Adina P]

((HUGS)) I'm so sorry!

[jen w.]

Thank you one and all. I knew you would understand...

[Nicky, Riley & Boris]

So very very sorry to read this sad news. I have no words but just want you to know I am sending only good thoughts for healing from the loss of dear Beasley