Back in surgery tonight

[The Kleins, Tempe, AZ]

Today was awful. I can barely bring myself to type this. Jess could not be closed today and his heart is not showing enough improvement to give life. The doctor painted a very grim picture with his chance for infection and the high risk he is at. He repeated that it is "up to you." -- What a frightening statement. He also suggested that he may not "be there" but the nurse and I disagree, as he has responded when the sedation is slightly lifted. The second doctor concurred. He could be a candidate for a transplant but not if there is infection or brain damage.
So I am beyond devastated driving myself home quite a distance and I get another call -- one of the attachments is loose again and they have to go back in and repair. This is the second time this has happened , and the second time he had to be opened today. The surgery seems to be taking forever and I am wondering what is going on.
I am not giving up but I am worn and torn. There are hundreds of people praying for Jess and he was (is) a healthy man. It's in Gods hands. I was told "one or two out of ten make it" -- I also know that stats don't necessarily mean the end result. Please continue to pray with me...

[Deb Audas]

I am prayin for the both of you. Strength is through prayers and I know that you and Jess are in everyone's thoughts tonight.

[Jennifer Pooler]

Janet- I'm saying prayers for Jesse. He is so fortunate to have such an amazing and strong wife.

[Susan]

I am praying for some good news for you both. You could certainly use it! Jess has your love to give him strength and we all hope it and out prayers can pull him thru this.

[Michele, Biscuit & Mo]

You and Jess are in our constant prayers. I can't tell you how sorry I am that you have to go through this - we're here for anything you need.

[Marianne *OZZY & ZOEY]

Prayer is powerful and it does many wonderful and unbelievalbe things.....rest assured many prayers are being said for Jess and your whole family and the doctors and nurses that are making the decisions and the care Jess is getting. My prayers are with you. Keep posting

[MBKANE]

Your strength and courage are unbelievable. Keep the faith and prayers going, I will continure to keep your whole family in my thoughts.

[The Kleins, Tempe, AZ]

Jesse has to rest today so I am staying away. Going to see my Mom and sis --Phoebe has a groom appointment tomorrow. Neighbors have been walking her and Hobbes (with his short little legs) a few blocks to an Einstein's for doggie bagels. She is looking like a street urchin from all the walking. I will post a post-groom shot if I have a functional moment.
Your comments are really helping me. Thank you.

[Jeri]

Since you have mentioned believing in prayers; Jesus said I will not forsake you or leave. No matter what happens He is with you holding you in his arms like a lamb. Jesus is holding both of you. I hope you have family in the area to be with you. Having your puppies is comforting. They know when we are sad and will give you love.

[Linda and Murphy]

You and Jess are in our prayers. Linda

[Adrianne Matzkin]

Oh, we are praying and crying with you!! Remember, Jess CAN be the "1 or 2 out of 10 that make it". I know that 1st hand. An old friend was diagnosed with uterine cancer that spread to the liver. With liver cancer, the odds are less - only 1 out 10 make it. Well, that was 22 years ago and tho we are no longer friends, I hear that she is happy and healthy and has her winter house on the West Coast of Florida..

Only positive thoughts!!!! I know that it is hard - you are physcially and emotionally exhausted but you must try.
We are sending you hugs, kisses and a shoulder to lean and cry on -
Adrianne