I am HOME!!!

[Jennifer and Jack]

I was discharged from the hospital today. I still have fevers but the work up is over for now. There is no other source of infection in my body. If my fever doesn't break soon we know it is the device in my heart. I have had every kind of catscan, MRI, Xray and culture at the off chance that there was an infection I had that was not showing up.

It was our sincere hope we would find something..but nothing. nothing hurts me. My lungs are behaving etc.

The plan now is for me to go home, stay on the one antibiotic that is thought to be effective and pray that the fevers go away. It is a waiting game at this point. I am on high doses of steroids that are starting to be tapered which might give the fever a chance to come out even more if the fever is going to.

If the fever goes up or doesn't quit we will need to pursue more testing toward my heart. They have not wanted to do anything invasive on me including testing that would even confirm infection on the heart.

They had wanted to do a PET scan but that test is ineffective when you are on steroids because it inhibits the uptake of glucose which is the bases of the test.

So. Let me just say. There has been a lot of talk of my odds of surviving a surgery. I will not listen to that CRAP any more. I have told my doctors and I will tell anyone else who says to me they don't think I am a good surgical candidate..BACK OFF you don't know me, my stubbornness or my God. I hope and I pray that I don't need to have that surgery but I will not fear it and I will not for one minute think about my odds, so please don't you either.....

I am a stubborn, stubborn, stubborn girl and I always get what I want... and I want to do well if I have to have it so I will.... Thank you to so many of you on here, and so many of my Paw Pad Family I have plenty of money to travel to the best hospital around to have the surgery if it needs to occur. Again my heart felt prayer, and begging of God is that this fever just goes away on the medication but I will not live in fear. Open heart surgery is nothing to sneeze at but nothing to fear when it has a chance to make you better...

So that said....Fevers BE GONE.....

Jack is at my mom's. Since my discharge to home is contingent on me not spiking fevers and since my mom is 2 1/2 hours away I am leaving Jack there for the week. I don't like it, but it is best for him to have stability. He is very very attached to my mom and Molly and when I bring him home I want to have a little more assurance that it is going to be for good or at least a long time. I can't keep driving back and fourth and I can't keep dragging him around.

I talk to my mom several times a day, she is not coming up to be with me now, she is very tired and burnt out, she is overwhelmed and she needs to take care of herself and the dogs.

Thank God I have amazing friends that I work/worked with and they have set up people to be with me. When I was in the hospital all I had to do was call and they arranged it for me, I had someone sleep with me at the hospital to distract me. Being alone is hard for me at the moment for a lot of reasons mostly because I think too much.

I received from my breeder today the names of everyone who has contributed to my funds and I am so overwhelmed and so grateful. I am personally working on cards for you to send to my breeder to mail out with the magnets.

Sorry for those who were excluded from it, I don't think the intention was to put it on here and since my breeder breeds goldendoodles, the magnet was for Golden Doodles YET so many of you contributed anyway.

My heart is so full....full of love NOT INFECTION. My body and soul is filled with HOPE not disease and my mind is filled with PEACE not fear.

I will be posting soon before you know it about Jack..bringing him home, about a million other questions I have.. but for now I just wanted to give you an update... and a big huge hug and say I am grateful for ever kind word, kind thought from those who are not praying people, prayers from those who are. Ever deed word and thought fills me right up..

I am so happy to be home in my own bed. I have friends taking turns staying from my neighborhood and church and work. So I am well taken care of.

Please pray my fevers away!!

[Denise & Sophie]

I am glad you are home. Continued prayers sent your way! God Bless you Jennifer! Love your fighting attitude and your faith.!!!

[Sharon & Monty]

Jennifer, Maybe a visit with Brad would help you to keep your spirits up.  LOL  Do you still have that poor boy hidden in the closet?  :)

[Jennifer and Jack]

I forgot about Brad! Lol he is stuffed away! I will have to get him out!

[Ann Kendig]

I am glad you are back home Jennifer!!!  I have thought of you so often.  You are one strong person.  The other evening I watched a show called 65 Red Roses and I thought of you the whole way through.  Many, many times I have donated $ to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation.  Years ago while my daughter was in Children's Hospital in Cincinnati OH for 6 months straight, I met a few children/teens with CF and we became close with them, and their parents, during my daughter's hospital stay.  Eventually we lost touch and I always regretted it.  It is good hear that you have a good support system as many children and adults with a chronic and life threatening  illness have no one.  I applaud your accomplishment of becoming a nurse, I don't think under the same circumstances I could have done what you did.  You are an inspiration to me.  Bless you!!  : )

[Jennifer and Jack]

Thank you so much! I know how blessed I am to have the huge support system I do...let me tell you. I need every single one of them because it spreads the work load out. I try very very hard never to ask for help unless I really need it so no one gets burnt out .

I loved being a nurse...it was one of my greatest joys and I will get back to it!

65 red roses was on Oprahs network. Eva was a sweet sweet girl who loved life to the fullest. I had the pleasure of being her Internet friend! Her death, just like all Cf and other disease deaths was hard! She fought so hard!
She was so full of life...just opulent catch a break!

Thank you all for your kind and loving words!

[Ann Kendig]

How wonderful that you and Eva were friends and could offer support to each other.  What an amazing young woman she was.  And you, my dear, are amazing too.  Hugs to you!  : )

[Joan, Louie and Mila]

Jennifer, so glad you are home and healing! You have such a huge strong heart!!! It's ironic that it may be the source of your fevers but what it tells me is your Loving heart will get you thru this with your faith and trust in Him!

HUGS and Prayers coming your way.

[Sharon & Monty]

i have evaluated this situation. You Miss Jennifer have no choice.  You will get better, you must get better cause all of us at DK deem it so.  those of us pray, pray, the rest of those deem it to be so.  So, Jennifer, get yourself back to where you should be, and for this we all pray.

[Pam & Trixie]

So glad to hear you are home.

I am praying for your fever to go away.

Thinking of you

[Jennifer and Jack]

Hey.. For so e reason none of my private messages came to my email! I am so sorry Imhabe not seen this befor now or I would have responded. It will take me a bit to write back I can only type with one arm..but I will for sure

[Laurie, Fudge, and Vern]

Jennifer, I hope things are looking up today and that fever is down.

[Jennifer and Jack]

Shhhhh I am not getting ahead of myself here but I have had a full 24 hours of nothing higher then 99.1..... But you know how when you post everything is good you get bammed???? Lol I am not saying anything but I am 24 hours like this SHHHHHH let's say I am adoring the numbers 98.8 ..hehe hehe

I even was able to send my mom mothers day presents today....I wanted to do it while I could...I sent chocolate covered strawberries from me, flowers from MOlly and Jack and I emailed her a card with a thermometer that read 98.8!!!!

Thanks for asking....it's to early to know if it will hold .....but I hope so!