A Sad Good-bye...

[jen w.]

It’s Sunday morning. I should be out walking the dog right now. I am lost. I am gutted. I don’t know what to do with myself except try to keep busy so that I don’t have to think. My dog is gone.

Almost two weeks ago now, just after he turned 11 years old, Beasley began to cough. It wasn’t like Kennel Cough. This cough was different. It only occurred a few times a day and passed. At first, I thought it was old dog stuff, nothing serious, but when he began to pick at his food; when he became breathless and tired on his walks, I knew something was wrong. His usual spark and zest for life seemed to be fading before my eyes. I watched and hoped he would get better but after a few days of this, I took him to the vet. X-rays revealed that Beasley had lung cancer, probably metastatic and originating somewhere else. There was no hope for a quality life. I tried to prepare myself for what was next. 

He passed peacefully, quietly and in my arms, my best friend, my only partner. He passed with dignity and grace but he passed too unexpectedly and too soon. Now, I am alone again. I have no children of my own, no husband and no family. I want my dog back.

I knew this day would come but I never expected it this soon or with such sudden finality. Lately, he had been coming to me and putting his head in my lap. I did wonder if he was trying to tell me something. Perhaps it was covered love or maybe he just wanted to play but I won't deny that I had a disconcerting feeling that something was not right. I have decided to share this here because it is a place where previously I expressed what a whacky, wonderful experience I was given with this beautiful spirit, “my darling B”.  

Please enjoy each moment you have with your own doodles. Someday those moments will be your memories…I wish you all peace and good times at the dog park! Sleep well, my dear Beasley, sleep well.

RIP Beasley 2004 - 2015

[Cindy and Olive (Ollie)]

Sending hugs. So sorry for your loss. Sounds like he was a joy. Xo

[Nancy, Ned, Clancy, and Charlie]

Jen, I am so sorry.  We are never prepared, even when we think we are. I hope our posts help you in your grief.

[Rose]

I'm so very sorry for your loss.

[Robin and Libby Louise]

I am in tears for you - so so sorry for the loss of your baby.  I'm sure you are thankful that he didn't suffer and that he was with you at the end, but I know that doesn't make you less lonely.  When the time is right you will find another to love, but no one will take his place.  Hugs.

[Gail and Bailey]

My heart breaks for you.  Rest in peace sweet Beasley.

[Cheryl and Finnegan]

I'm so sorry for your sadness and deep loss. We are never prepared to lose such a close friend and companion.  Sending you hugs during this tough time.

[Jenny and Cooper]

I'm so sorry for your loss of beloved Darling B.  He will live with you forever in your heart. 

[Shoney & Ruby]

I'm so sorry for your deep loss. I'm sending you a ton of hugs and hope that you feel surrounded by love as you grieve. 

[Sue and Buddy]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending you gentle hugs

Run free sweet Beasley.

[Laurie, Fudge, and Vern]

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful dog! We are never ready for this and it is the hardest thing about having a dog. My heart goes out to you at this difficult time.