I am HOME!!!

[Jennifer and Jack]

I was discharged from the hospital today. I still have fevers but the work up is over for now. There is no other source of infection in my body. If my fever doesn't break soon we know it is the device in my heart. I have had every kind of catscan, MRI, Xray and culture at the off chance that there was an infection I had that was not showing up.

It was our sincere hope we would find something..but nothing. nothing hurts me. My lungs are behaving etc.

The plan now is for me to go home, stay on the one antibiotic that is thought to be effective and pray that the fevers go away. It is a waiting game at this point. I am on high doses of steroids that are starting to be tapered which might give the fever a chance to come out even more if the fever is going to.

If the fever goes up or doesn't quit we will need to pursue more testing toward my heart. They have not wanted to do anything invasive on me including testing that would even confirm infection on the heart.

They had wanted to do a PET scan but that test is ineffective when you are on steroids because it inhibits the uptake of glucose which is the bases of the test.

So. Let me just say. There has been a lot of talk of my odds of surviving a surgery. I will not listen to that CRAP any more. I have told my doctors and I will tell anyone else who says to me they don't think I am a good surgical candidate..BACK OFF you don't know me, my stubbornness or my God. I hope and I pray that I don't need to have that surgery but I will not fear it and I will not for one minute think about my odds, so please don't you either.....

I am a stubborn, stubborn, stubborn girl and I always get what I want... and I want to do well if I have to have it so I will.... Thank you to so many of you on here, and so many of my Paw Pad Family I have plenty of money to travel to the best hospital around to have the surgery if it needs to occur. Again my heart felt prayer, and begging of God is that this fever just goes away on the medication but I will not live in fear. Open heart surgery is nothing to sneeze at but nothing to fear when it has a chance to make you better...

So that said....Fevers BE GONE.....

Jack is at my mom's. Since my discharge to home is contingent on me not spiking fevers and since my mom is 2 1/2 hours away I am leaving Jack there for the week. I don't like it, but it is best for him to have stability. He is very very attached to my mom and Molly and when I bring him home I want to have a little more assurance that it is going to be for good or at least a long time. I can't keep driving back and fourth and I can't keep dragging him around.

I talk to my mom several times a day, she is not coming up to be with me now, she is very tired and burnt out, she is overwhelmed and she needs to take care of herself and the dogs.

Thank God I have amazing friends that I work/worked with and they have set up people to be with me. When I was in the hospital all I had to do was call and they arranged it for me, I had someone sleep with me at the hospital to distract me. Being alone is hard for me at the moment for a lot of reasons mostly because I think too much.

I received from my breeder today the names of everyone who has contributed to my funds and I am so overwhelmed and so grateful. I am personally working on cards for you to send to my breeder to mail out with the magnets.

Sorry for those who were excluded from it, I don't think the intention was to put it on here and since my breeder breeds goldendoodles, the magnet was for Golden Doodles YET so many of you contributed anyway.

My heart is so full....full of love NOT INFECTION. My body and soul is filled with HOPE not disease and my mind is filled with PEACE not fear.

I will be posting soon before you know it about Jack..bringing him home, about a million other questions I have.. but for now I just wanted to give you an update... and a big huge hug and say I am grateful for ever kind word, kind thought from those who are not praying people, prayers from those who are. Ever deed word and thought fills me right up..

I am so happy to be home in my own bed. I have friends taking turns staying from my neighborhood and church and work. So I am well taken care of.

Please pray my fevers away!!

[Jo and Beamer]

Sending cooooool thoughts. 

[Jennifer and Jack]

I will take those cool thoughts!

[Jarka, Monty & Auggie]

Very cool! :-)

[Jennifer and Jack]

Let's stay cool about 98 degrees works for me!

[Jennifer and Jack]

Love you and Monty Jarka!!!!! I will forever have etched in my head Montys reaction to me when he came back to the hospital the second time to see me!! it makes me teary eyed he was so sweet ..so excited and hopped right in bed with me !!!

Thank you again Jarka...could you private message me your address...I want to mail you something

[Jarka, Monty & Auggie]

LOL, I can't stop laughing when I think of it. How about we make a deal and instead of you mailing anything, you just come over for dinner next time you are in CO.

[Laurie, Fudge, and Vern]

Your secret is safe with me.....I know nothing :) LOL

[Jennifer and Jack]

Good I knew my secret would be safe on the Internet!

[Sue, Murphy and Bella ()*o*()]

Jennifer, I think I'd reconsider taking Brad out of hiding. You know how excited and worked up you get when he;s around and we don't want you getting even 0.1 degrees hotter than you are right now. Keep us posted and keep Brad out of sight.

[Bonnie and Kona]

;o) heehee

[Jennifer and Jack]

Lol really hard!