A Sad Good-bye...

[jen w.]

It’s Sunday morning. I should be out walking the dog right now. I am lost. I am gutted. I don’t know what to do with myself except try to keep busy so that I don’t have to think. My dog is gone.

Almost two weeks ago now, just after he turned 11 years old, Beasley began to cough. It wasn’t like Kennel Cough. This cough was different. It only occurred a few times a day and passed. At first, I thought it was old dog stuff, nothing serious, but when he began to pick at his food; when he became breathless and tired on his walks, I knew something was wrong. His usual spark and zest for life seemed to be fading before my eyes. I watched and hoped he would get better but after a few days of this, I took him to the vet. X-rays revealed that Beasley had lung cancer, probably metastatic and originating somewhere else. There was no hope for a quality life. I tried to prepare myself for what was next. 

He passed peacefully, quietly and in my arms, my best friend, my only partner. He passed with dignity and grace but he passed too unexpectedly and too soon. Now, I am alone again. I have no children of my own, no husband and no family. I want my dog back.

I knew this day would come but I never expected it this soon or with such sudden finality. Lately, he had been coming to me and putting his head in my lap. I did wonder if he was trying to tell me something. Perhaps it was covered love or maybe he just wanted to play but I won't deny that I had a disconcerting feeling that something was not right. I have decided to share this here because it is a place where previously I expressed what a whacky, wonderful experience I was given with this beautiful spirit, “my darling B”.  

Please enjoy each moment you have with your own doodles. Someday those moments will be your memories…I wish you all peace and good times at the dog park! Sleep well, my dear Beasley, sleep well.

RIP Beasley 2004 - 2015

[BG and Gavin]

So sorry for your painful loss. Beasley sounds like he was a great friend to you. Sending best thought your way.

[Camilla and Darwin]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[F, Calla & Luca]

I am truly sorry for your loss. It is hard for some people to understand what companions our dogs are but not for us.

[Ricki and Tara (doodle)]

I'm so sorry you lost your Darling B. He sounds like he was a wonderful companion and friend. Thank you for the reminder about enjoying and appreciating every moment we have with our doodles and other animal companions. Their time with us is all too brief.

[Lynda Kamrath]

I can sure commiserate with you.  I have lost two doodles, the last on February 15, 2014.  Groucho Too also had cancer but not quite such a quick passing.   We discovered he had cancer in November and the vet said he had about 3 months.  Sure enough, he had another "bleed out" in February and we had him put down.  It is always hard and I don't know if faster is better.  We enjoyed our last months with Groucho and he seemed happy.  I will always remember our last trip to his beloved beach with his friends.  Great dogs live in our memories forever.

[Wendy and Myla]

I'm so sorry and so sad for you, but I'm so glad that Beasley was in your arms and surrounded by your love when it was time to go!  Hugs for you at this very very hard time!

[Jane, Guinness and Murphy]

I am so sorry, Jen....sending hugs.

[Nancy and Georgia Brown]

I am so sorry for your loss. But they are never really gone as they live forever in our memories.

[Kris and Sawyer]

Peace...

[Jennifer and Jack]

I am so sorry for your loss. My Jack is my child... We also live alone together. You are right we know when we get them that we most likely will outlive them. It's still not something that sinks in. I never dealt with the loss of a pet before...but I live very much as each day counts.......

If it were me, Imwould take comfort that your boy passed in your arms surrounded in love...what a gift to give him... I pray that I can do that for Jack....love him every minute that I can..and then know in the end we gave it our best. Praying your heart heals