I am Leaving On A Jet Plane...

[Jennifer and Jack]

Well I am hoping to be leaving on a jet plane,. With all the luggage I have, I am not sure we ever will make it off the ground.

Finally after a whole year of waiting, doing fund raising, and waiting for my insurance to change so I can go out of state. I am this Saturday headed to National Jewish Hospital. I will be gone at least 14 days, maybe a little longer.  National Jewish is one of the top Cystic Fibrosis Hospitals in the Country but more importantly then then they are THE TOP IN THE WORLD for the type of bacteria I have in my lungs that in spite of over six months of treatment, losing partial hearing from treatment as well as my balance has decided my lungs are just too cool so the bacteria won't die.

At this point I pretty much understand I most likely won't get rid of it but, if anyone but God can, National Jewish can. I will be seen by the top experts for two solid weeks, lots of tests being run, care plans, and possible some talk of some surgery to prevent my airway from closing up, another to prevent reflux from going into my lungs.. You know just your normal things a girl does on vacation.. some of you go to the beach and sun yourselves, some go skiing, cruising, Me, I go with my good friends to the hospital!!

I am blessed beyond blessed and I can't help but share with you and I hope it is okay.. because I know I say that a lot. At first I was going to go to the hospital with my friend, I would not let my mom come because I want Jack to be well cared for and I trust my mom to do that, Jack loves her... My friend Kara was going to go with me but then I realized how expensive everything was so I decided to go alone..... As blessed as I am, Kara ended up being able to go with me for the first eight days, then I have two other friends that will be with me getting me back to the airport and everything.

Now the cooler coolest part, This trip in spite of the fund raisers, and all the money my parents were going to give me was going to still drain my bank account and I mean drain.. I was such a stress case about it because between that and also thinking I was going to have to sell my house now that I cant work.. It was a lot of pressure

Two weeks ago, I put in to refinance my house, I never thought I would get approved, especially since I am not working, but technically I am still employed. My credit score has taken a few punches because of late paying bills, I had a freak out the other day.. Wanted to cancel the trip, was really upset. I called the mortgage company and asked them the status of my refinance. They said it was going to be weeks before they knew... I ended up driving around that night with Jack.. just praying and crying and eating Mc Donald's and praying and finally I went home and said to myself there is nothing more I can do. 

 I think I was overwhelmed, exhausted and none of my friends were available to chat so it was me, Jack, McDonalds and some Jack Johnson on the radio

I slept for 14 hours and when I woke up it was the mortgage company, Somehow my loan was approved and not only that it was approved for immediate closing. I am going tomorrow to sign my closing paperwork.

I can keep my house!! The very house that I dreamed of when I was in nursing school, It is a small three bed room but big master bedroom with big sink in tub.. and a nice back yard for Jack and a fire place for me.

Now that didn't change the fact that when I got back from my trip my bank account was still going to be empty.. something that freaks me immensely.... but I was so excited about how God came through.. for my friend Kara to be able to go on the trip for my friends Jami, and Kendra to be there with me was well after Kara leaves..

I got another phone call, Guess what? Somehow I am getting a nice refund for some reason or another when I close one my house!!!!! MOney in the bank.. YES... Guess what again?? You probably know this but I didn't? They don't have you pay your first months mortgage when you refinance.. YAY I get to keep Aprils money!!!!!

Next time I worry, please slap me....

Now on Saturday afternoon if you see a big jet rolling down the highways from US Airways headed to Denver, do not be alarmed for that will be my flight, I fear my seven bags of medications, IV equipment, oxygen, and pumps are going to be so heavy they ground us.... and we will have to roll our way there!!!

I have my blanket from Laurie all ready to be packed and I have all the love of you guys tucked in my hearts. and of course my IPAD, I will check in when I can.. I am staying in the Holiday Inn on Colorado ave.... real close to the hospital. so if anyone wants to meet up let me know, I will see how I am feeling.

I know I share a lot of personal information, and I know a lot of people are not like that. I have always been an open book, it is just my personality, In doing so my hope is that you can see that even when life doesnt turn out the way you want, and believe me, I dreamed my whole life of being a stay at home mom to human children, and being married and so many other things, if you look close enough and you have faith to believe you can see the hand of God.

With that I don't know what will happen when I go to get out of bed, who knows what todays trials will bring.... but when I get the chance to show you something amazing ... I just want to...because I want everyone to have hope, to have faith to believe and to keep going even when it seems impossible.. and right now friends, doing what I am doing day in and day out sucks sour grapes.. but I have hope and faith, and all my family and DK friends

Look out Denver, here we come in four days, if we can get the plane off the ground!!!

[Janie, Jackson and Jilly]

Jennifer, will be thinking of you! Keep that great spirit! Travel safe and will keep you in prayers.

[Bonnie and Kona]

Jennifer, This is such exciting news! I am so happy you have shared it with us. I am praying for the doctors to have wisdom beyond their experience or training and that they will have answers in how to best help you. It sounds like the money situation is beyond what you could even have hoped for or imagined. God is good. Lots of love to you and prayers for health.

[Karen and Bridget]

Wishing you a safe trip and answers to all of your health issues.  I continue to lift you up in prayer.  Blessings & peace to you always!

[Lisa, Daisy & Dexter]

Jennifer you are on your way and I just know everything will be better when you come back. God be with you, as always I will be praying for you. Hugs x0x0x0x

[Nicky, Riley & Boris]

I am willing, hoping and praying that this trip will truly be the trip of a lifetime and grant you what you so richly deserve, good health.  We expect to hear from you on your journey and how you are getting on.... G-d speed Jennifer.

[PJ and Zach]

I hope your trip helps you find the answers you need, and that it is a journey toward healing.  Best of luck, Jennifer.

[Jennifer and Jack]

Thank you so much for your kind words! What a relief to get a break right before my trip!!!!! So happy.so grateful ,

[Ashley, Ronnie and Ruby]

You are only give as much as you can handle. You are showing us, and most importantly yourself, how very strong you are. Best of luck. We are thinking of you!

[Doris, Knox & Flash]

Oh, Jennifer!  God looks down on those who look up, so keep lookin' up, girl! I will continue to lift you up in prayer from Texas!

[Margaret & Pebbles]

God Bless You Jennifer.  Saying prayers for you.