Rainy day, bored dog, exhausted mom. Tomorrow is another day.

[Whitney & Brisco]

Today I discovered that Brisco doesn't care for rain... Well, lets start from the beginning. Yesterday (or today depending on where you are) was my volunteer day at my sons school so Brisco had to hang out at home for a bit on his own. Normally rain, volunteer day ect would be just another day but I have had a tooth ache for 2 days and can't get into the dentist until tomorrow; needless to say I dont feel great. But being a mom you know sometimes you just have to suck it up. Usually J would be able to pick up the slack but he is on midnights and worked 2 doubles in a row 11pm til 3 pm. He's busted.

Anyway, I  came home from the school and took a nap with Brisco then it was time for everyone to come home, Ry after school snack ect. And then comes the rain. Let me set the scene, pouring rain, dog whining wanting to go out, I hook him on take him out and freeze. He would not move off the front porch and at first I wasn't going to force him. We come back in side trying to get homework done, dinner made all while holding back tears because my mouth is THROBBING and Brisco is whining. Not just a little bit I bet we attempted to go outside around 6 times, no go. He refused to move. Finally after a cpl hours of non stop whimpers and whining, up and down the  hall, to and from the door I forced him into the yard to at least pee.

I'm feeling guilty bc I  took a nap earlier when it wasn't raining and I could have used that time to play ball outside- burn some Brisco energy. And now J was getting some much needed sleep so playing ball or anything in the house was off limits bc our upstairs isn't that big and we would have definitely woken him up. On top of all this my patience was wearing thin bc I'm feeling so bad. I actually raised my voice begging him to stop whining. 

So now here I am writing this blog bc I feel bad. I feel as though I wasn't at my best today and I let myself get overwhelmed and lost my patience, which is very out of character for myself. As I sit here now with my sweet dog beside me I'm sad but also know that he's probably already forgiven me. At least I hope so. I just need to remember no one is perfect and tomorrow is another day. After I get this tooth situation taken care of in the morning I'll be good as new and back to my old self. I know that I love Brisco and my family in general and that this one bad day doesn't out weigh the other 364 days (give or take a few sick days). 

My point is that, as women we often hold ourselves to such almost unrealistic standards and if we do say "have a bad day" we dwell on it and criticize ourselves for ever. We are allowed to mess up, its ok, everyone does. It's how you move forward and learn from it that makes you who you are. Today isn't my norm and tomorrow will be better, every day is another chance. I'll end this with a few of my favorite quotes because when you can't really find the words someone's probably already said it better anyway.
"Every moment wasted looking back keeps us from moving forward." -Hillary Clinton
"Strive for progress NOT perfection." -Unknown
"Too many people undervalue what they are, and over value what they're not."- Unknown

[Whitney & Brisco]

Thanks everyone for your encouragement! Yes I did get my tooth handled and feel like a new person. I'm actually glad I wrote the blog in the moment bc it helped me remember I'm human. And that I have a wonderful family that probably haven't thought about it again.

[Cheryl and Finnegan]

I just thought of another quote after reading your blog --

Dogs teach the perfectionist in us, humility  :) 

Their joy is never spoiled by peeing on the porch because it's raining or snowing or knocking everything over while chasing down a hallway for a ball.  I think there's a lesson in there somewhere.  Hope you're feeling better and that you're having a wonderful day, today!!

[Jenny and Cooper]

Aaaww so sorry you had a bad day. You sound like a wonderful mom. I'm sure Brisco knows that you love him so much. I hope your toothache is gone and so is the rain. Have a great weekend!!!

[Linda, Charlie Brown and Beau]

Hang in there Whitney.  The beauty about time is it never stands still.  I would assume you did get that tooth fixed and you now feel fantastic.  Have a great weekend with your family & Brisco.